What a great little cocktail combo, huh?
He is very intelligent and a very good communicator, but there are times when he holds everything in and you don't really know what is going on.
He loves me and my son. He WANTS us to be in his life, but at what capacity, he doesn't know. He can barely do himself, much less any additional responsibility. That I know for a FACT.
I love him.
I want to be with him.
I don't want to be with anyone else, but him.
For the time being, it's best we separate and try to get healthy apart.
I want to believe that we'll be able to conquer this, but if not, it'll all work out somehow.
I HAVE to believe that. Why?
Because God has promised that He would ALWAYS take care of me. Will NEVER leave me. Will love me FOREVER. I trust Him without reservation.
My husband is a "man." He is a flesh and blood human being. He is not perfect. He makes mistakes. I do, too. We all do.
I don't ever fully trust any human being because there are always errors that will be made, so why be "surprised" when they happen.
No. I'm not being a "Negative Nellie." Just a "realist."
"A realist filled with hope." :)
God will guide you.
ReplyDeleteHi! I just came by from Friday hopping, and I am now following you. I will be thinking of you over here in China. I don't think you sounded negative at all. You were being realistic and hopeful--just like you said.
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Stephanie - Ten Talents
Hi, visiting you from TGC New Friend Friday. God will help if you are truly putting forth effort and he sees that you are trying to change. You're right, He does set the standards. So we have to live by them. It's Satan who tried to put us in the downward spiral but only with effort on OUR part, we can get out of it. I hope it all works out! Read the bible daily. :-)
ReplyDeleteHi, what a brave post... I was engaged once before I married to a great man... Sexy, hard working but he was a closet alcholic... He never drank at parties and he spent most nights drinking.. at home.. It was hard to watch... I started going to alanon for help for me... BOth his parents died suddenly when he was a child 14, with in a month of one another..I had many feelings for him, but I stayed 8 years.. when my dad died and he was not supportive and even said things like when are you going to get over this.. I knew he couldn't change the pain was too hard for him he drank to forget... SO I had to leave, it was the hardest decision I ever did, but I was afraid he would influence a child if I had one and I wanted a child... I don't regret loving him.... I regret...staying so long thinking he could change..I hope it works out for you. You are being a realist.. not negative... it maybe the best for you.. It's a tough journey especially for a child...
ReplyDeleteyour taking the right steps
You have wisdom when you say "I don't ever fully trust any human being because there are always errors that will be made, so why be "surprised" when they happen."
ReplyDeleteIn one of Francine Rivers books a character says something similar I remember it really struck me hard at the time...I think it was her book "And the Shofar Blew"